On condition that this was a TikTok supply, I used to be going to incorporate hyperlinks to the unique movies. Sadly, her account was simply made it non-public, making that inconceivable. However the of us at SorryAntiVaxxer have a compilation video here. It’s robust to look at. Actually robust. So click on by at your individual discretion.
I’m additionally going to weave this timeline into the video screencaps right here, so all of it makes extra narrative sense.
Mar 29th 2020: Takes 2 weeks off from work as a result of she’s afraid of contracting Covid from individuals who do not cough into their elbows, and he or she does not wish to get it and go it to her sons (the youngest being ~6 yo on the time). Does not thoughts if her 2 weeks off is unpaid go away. Appears smart, even extra-careful.
Apr 2020 to Aug 2021: Goes to Fb College and turns into a sufferer of Covid misinformation. Turns into a radicalized QAnon/Trumptard kook, although not the worst on the market.
Aug 26th 2021: Refuses a Fast-Antigen Check for the 7-yo son, who’s sick (likely with Covid). That is a pre-requisite for getting into the clinic she’s taken him to, so he most likely does not get identified/handled and goes dwelling to recuperate.
Late-Aug/early-Sep 2021: She catches Covid, likely from the son. The child will most likely be OK, which acts as affirmation bias to her that Covid shouldn’t be critical, perhaps identical to a light ‘flu.
Sep 4th 2021: First onset of her signs, Day 1 by her calendar – however she could have caught it a bit earlier and been asymptomatic initially.
Sep 11th 2021: Coughing constantly, she presents on the ER on Day 8. A Fast-Antigen Check exhibits a false unfavourable. She’s allowed in and questioned by the nurse if she’s vaccinated and if she has ready a Residing Will. As seen within the video clip above, she dismisses each questions out-of-hand as bullshit.
(She does not realize it then, and possibly neither does the clinic – however that is the final day when she will be able to safely provoke Regeneron antibody infusion that may presumably save her. Past Day 10, the EUA for Regeneron doesn’t allow its use for remedy of Covid. It is doable that her insurance coverage does not cowl Regeneron anyway, and he or she may not have been keen to pony up ~$3k out-of-pocket for one thing that is rationed, particularly if she had simply examined false-negative for Covid. In hindsight, it is a deadly mistake, however the selection wasn’t made obtainable to her anyway.)
Now we choose up with screenshots.
“I can’t cease this cough. Extreme abdomen cramps. My kidneys really feel like they’re on hearth, seems like I’m being punched within the again. And sure, I’m an anti-vaxxer. I received’t get that rattling vaccine.”
Sep 14th 2021: Along with her cough worsening, she continues to be a vehement antivaxxer—it is too late anyway for the vaccine, and likewise for Regeneron on Day 11, however she does not realize it. Vehement that she will not take the poison (vaccine), no matter occurs.
She has COVID, she already seems like crap, like she’s being “punched within the again,” however refuses to let go of the ideology that received her there. She would moderately really feel like COVID-shit than to have gotten the jab.
Bear in mind, she began by taking day off from work to guard her children from COVID, and Fb turned her into this.
She says, “I seem like shit, I really feel like shit. One thing has to provide.”
One thing needed to give, however it wasn’t going to be her ideological opposition to a vaccine that would’ve prevented all of this agony.
The “poison” virus is healthier than the “poison” vaccine.
Sep 17th 2021: SpO2 degree from a pulse oximeter exhibits 89-91. Will get examined once more—the check comes again constructive for COVID. Calls the VA ER (she’s a veteran? Perhaps the late husband) and is requested to name different ERs. They cannot give her any medicine at this stage at any fee.
She admits that Covid is kicking her ass.
She complains that the native ER received’t take her as a result of they don’t have any beds, and defiantly states that she nonetheless wouldn’t take “the shot.”
It was too late for her anyway. You may’t get the shot upon getting COVID. However it will’ve served some objective had she reconsidered the knowledge of the shot in some unspecified time in the future. She wonders if he ought to name an ambulance, to seek out her a mattress someplace. On September 20, she says “I broke down, I’m lastly in an ER.”
Sep 20th 2021: She’s lastly within the ER on a bunch of IVs. They diagnose pneumonia (ground-glass opacity on chest X-Ray?) and transfer her to the ICU the place she’s placed on supplemental oxygen for the primary time after blacking out twice (not clear if she blacked out at dwelling or on the ER).
She blacked out twice, which she says was “good, as a result of it lastly received me within the hospital.”
Sep 21st 2021: She’s getting worse, and realizes that her final result might be deadly for the primary time. She has been knowledgeable that she will likely be intubated and on the ‘vent if she does not enhance. She informs her dad and mom and youngsters and prepares them for caretaking preparations.
I can’t think about having that dialog with younger youngsters.
In reality, that is the primary time she shifts from that defiant “condemn me” formulation, centered on her personal selfishness, and acknowledges that her hospitalization is impacting different folks.
Sep 22nd 2021: SpO2 is within the 70s, so she’s clearly heading downwards. Edit: On BiPap for the primary time.
Sep 23rd 2021: Nonetheless on BiPap, however feeling barely higher. Asks for PayPal contributions for the children and payments, in a “worst-case situation,” “being sensible,” and so forth. Pillow cowl is blue.
I hated watching these final movies greater than something. The worry and desperation in her voice is gutting. She could have been initially obnoxious, “come at me” and “say I deserve it, I don’t care,” however her children actually didn’t deserve it. And I don’t assume she did both. She was a sufferer of an enormous disinformation marketing campaign, and I wouldn’t want this destiny on my worst enemy.
She had 5 children. 4 of them residing at dwelling. Father had already handed away. The youngest is Eight years outdated. She stated she was making an attempt to be “on the sensible facet of getting children and payments and every thing.” However for the love of god, being on one’s deathbed from an avoidable illness is the final place one desires to start being “sensible”! The time to begin was each time the vaccine grew to become obtainable for her group. And on condition that she was overweight, it will’ve been practically from the beginning, in March.
Sep 24th 2021: No video, only a message.
Sep 26th 2021: Miraculously improves, and is faraway from the BiPap (mis-states it as bypass). Pillow cowl is white. Claims a physician had a dialog together with her during which he stated she’s taking over an ICU mattress that might be higher used for a superb vaccinated particular person. She thinks that the worst is behind her.
Sep 30th 2021: In all probability final video, from the ICU whereas on BiPap once more, perhaps after a relapse in oxygen ranges. Pillow cowl is blue, speech is garbled/unintelligible (may someone publish a transcript if doable?). She’s clearly in worse form than the primary BiPap on Sep 22nd.
Oct 1st – 21st 2021: No video updates, however clearly within the terminal part, on the ‘vent, within the ICU.
Oct 15th: One other fundraising request from her mother(?) Debbie. This have to be in her terminal, presumably intubated, part.
Oct 21st: Lifeless – would have been a horrible remaining three weeks.
There was by no means an acknowledgment that her actions destroyed her household. There was by no means any effort to show her tragedy right into a teachable second which may’ve saved some lives down the road. Her obituary didn’t even point out COVID. She merely “gained her Angel wings and joined Jesus in Heaven.”
What a waste. What a tragic, mindless, meaningless waste.
You may watch a compilation of her videos at SorryAntivaxxer.com, if you happen to can abdomen it. For no matter purpose, her coughing received to me. So visceral.
Bear in mind, she didn’t begin a rabid anti-vaxxer. She began taking precautions and behaving sensibly to guard her youngsters. Then Fb got here and broke her so deeply, that she misplaced the elemental intuition to guard her youngsters towards all threats.
One thing is deeply damaged.